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falling into that beautiful thing called Love.

Ridiculous, inconvenient, consuming, can't-live-without-each-other love.

Attraction. Flirtation. Euphoria. Doubt. The Truth.

(Also known as the big thing, the real deal, or, the most important part of this whole sloppy, thrilling, infuriating, marvelous experience.)

So, this is love. As wondrous and scary and fabulous as it can be. It may have started with mere friendship and attraction, but where it's ended up is somewhere deeper and truer and endlessly more fulfilling.
And, despite yourself, you will have learned a little something along the way. That euphoria doesn't have to be fleeting. That love can survive doubt. That a joyful instinct should never be repressed.

And so,
you throw yourself into love,
Heartfirst.

like...

like falling upwards in a jungle, just because there's trees.

like eating black forest gateau on a mountain top.

like diving through fire to get into the swimming pool.



there's some sort of forlorn irony here, but i can't quite find it.

last night...

...was a mistake. i'm never drinking that much again.

at least until new year's.

christmas tree

how long am i allowed to keep it up for?

family lunches

why do they barely involve eating?

it's my birthday

...why don't i feel any older?

weddings

why is there always so much to do when organising a wedding, even though everything's been sorted?

so. blogging. right-ho.

i don't even know why i'm bothering, because no-one's going to read this.

...except you, obviously.

see what i did there? broke the 4th wall or... whatever it's called.

so. hi.

my name's ant, and everything interesting you need to know about me is in my profile.

i'll likely give up on blogging within 2 or 3 posts.

and.

that's it.

christ-almighty, stop pressing enter to make your post longer ant, you cheeky slag.

*sigh*

thanks for reading.

love,
ant.